I just looked at the date of the last post - I have been gone for almost a month, haven’t I? I spent the first two weeks of that learning Dutch in a old French chateau-looking place tucked away in the middle of nowhere in Belgium (that one deserves a post of its own). And then the next two weeks, ahem..ok, I was being promiscuous and trying out a few other blog sites and experimenting with having topical blogs, rather than one whole blog where I dump every junk that happens in my life. But you know what, I am back. I still think I might maintain a couple of those blogs, or I may decide to kill them - if they survive, I will introduce them here when the time is right.

I guess part of my fickleness with blogs comes from the uncertainties that have invaded my life, at the moment. After almost a year of commuting, I am in the last stage of moving completely to Amsterdam - by January, I will be wholly and severally ( I dunno what that means here. I have just been reading a lot of legal contracts and they always seem to say that) in Amsterdam. So, a lot of moving around and traveling these days and thats affecting my online life too. I cant seem to settle down in one blog home.

Ah yes, I had started to write about acquired love. Don’t you think love for someone or something is acquired? And I mean, love in general. Including, but not limited to, the one you feel for your life partner. I don’t always get it when people tell me about love at first sight. I mean, how do you know something is right with just one look?

For me, it takes a long time to like someone, or something. Like this blog, for instance. Its really taking ages for me, to feel comfy here. Given its my space in the online world, about time I felt at home! But I think thats just the way I am, with everything.

When I went out on my first date, I think I just wanted to go out on a date. I still remember I was so nonchalant about the whole thing, I showed up in an old pair of jeans and T-shirt and it was too late by the time I realised the guy who I was meeting, was dressed smartly in a turtle neck shirt, which I suspect he bought especially for the occasion, and have never seen him wear ever again. Of course, there was a little bit of love at first sight, but there was a lot of room to grow and to this day (yes, its been 6 years and am still with Mr.Turtleneck!), i still feel like I love him a little bit more with every passing day.

And the first time I started my current job - I hated it, hated it, hated it. In fact, two months into the job, I created a ruckus and insisted that I should be transferred into another department. I still can’t remember why my boss let me stay. Well, I am glad he did - coz I grew to love it. Slowly, but surely, I acquired a genuine passion for it.

Every country I have lived in (on last count, thats five), I have steadily fit into the place. Not that I get off the plane and go, “Oh! this place is so me! I am so gonna love living here.” Nope, never worked that way. Took lotsa time and effort to genuinely belong, anywhere.

Love at first sight is for some. And acquired love is for the rest. I guess I belong to the rest. So I will grow to love my little online corner and be regular here, soon enough. Soon enough. Just a little bit of patience is all I need.