June 25, 2006

Guilt

Filed under: Musings by Sue @ 4:12 pm

On a sullen Dutch summer day,
With no hint of sun or rain,
When even the trees refuse to sway,
I search for hope, but in vain.

I hear her voice across many a mile,
Faint against the torrential pour,
And the cough that hides behind the smile,
Wishing I was there, and nothing more.

When my head was spinning and very hot,
She had picked me up and held me close;
Even though I was numb and but a tot,
That memory, I cherish like a golden rose.

When the world had all but fallen apart,
When even breathing was just a drain,
She had smiled, straight from her heart
And I knew then, all would be well again.

Yet, I sit here, worthless, in a faraway land,
What is it that keeps me here, I wonder;
When all I want is to hug her and hold her hand,
What could be worth keeping me and her asunder?


Could I go home, just to make a cup of herbal tea,
So she could watch the rain, with me at her side?
To answer without a phone, when she calls for me,
Just to be there, to hold her through every stride?

I stare out from my window at the sultry summer sky,
And wish I could be home, by any wild wonderful way,
Perhaps a pair of wings that would let me soar and fly;
Yet all that stares back is a dark dismal dreary day.

Get well soon, my mother dear.

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  1. Hey Sue
    Good to see you back! Lovely poem. It echoes my own thoughts…

    Love
    Rambler

    Comment by Rambler — June 25, 2006 @ 4:32 pm

  2. Wanting the new
    Longing the old
    Oh, the torment

    Comment by Sig11 — June 25, 2006 @ 6:42 pm

  3. Thanks, Rambler..:)
    Sig11, its a torment indeed. nice “haiku” !

    Comment by Sue — June 26, 2006 @ 6:00 am

  4. Hi Sue,

    Hope your mother feels better soon.

    Comment by Anjali — June 26, 2006 @ 12:09 pm

  5. Did your mom read this? How is she now?

    Comment by Mridula — June 27, 2006 @ 1:28 pm

  6. After reading your wonderful verse, all I can think of is this:

    Across distances when longing stretches, to touch a leaf that awaits a warm breath that’ll breathe life in it anew, the waiting ceases only when the next waiting begins!

    Comment by Anil — July 30, 2006 @ 4:35 pm

  7. Thanks, everyone. My mom is much better now.

    Anil, how true..the waiting the never ends..

    Comment by Sue — August 1, 2006 @ 7:26 pm

  8. Hi Sue. I found your poem very touching. I often struggle with the same feelings. Not sure though, if there is ever a solution….

    Comment by Just Dazzle — August 2, 2006 @ 9:53 am

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